When he is not around...

I have been writing something and then deleting it, writing again and again deleting it for last couple of minutes. Because I didnt want to use any words that will reflect a feeling of being alone or of missing someone.

The whole day goes by fine but as it comes to the evening, (the time when he comes in quietly and makes an attempt at scaring me and succeeding most of the times.. hmphhh...) I realize thats exactly the feeling around.. that of missing him. Even though its the same me who gets irritated when he throws his laptop bag, the shoes, the belt, the wallet, ah.. i mean everything around.. when he is back from work.

Now there was an offsite being planned at work but he didn't want to go.. He thinks it will be better if we both go together to whichever tourist destination it is... Of course that will be great but its also nice to go and enjoy with office gang is what I think. So, I insisted and made him say yes for it. It was also because I got a feeling that his backing out made some of his friends also decide against going and that would have been unfair... Hope they enjoy next few days with some interesting activities. This is definitely going to be the highlight.. provided the video has not scared him already..

While friends 'a', 'b' and 'c' suggested I come to their place if I am scared or get bored or just to spend time with them, i thought i will be good lazying around at home. Its not being rude, i hope. I might meet them in the coming days as Amit is back only on Sunday morning.. anyways, then suddenly the thought of not having met another friend 'd' ever since I moved to dubai came haunting and I think I will go to meet her tomorrow.. Lets see..

As for spending the evening is concerned, there is cozy soft light in the room, some nice instrumental music playing on and I am off to read a book I am half way through.. before that, lemme raid the fridge for some salad and make myself a mocktail.. howzzat?

Nope: I am not missing anybody .. :(